Resolving not to make resolutions: happiness in 09'

So...with the start of 2009, I've been doing some thinking. In the past I've sat down and made countless lists of resolutions that I swore to myself I would keep (later proving myself to be quite an eloquent liar since I never seem to keep them up, lol) but not this year. This year is different for me. I've decided that I'm not gonna write out or even say some lame New Year's Resolutions like "I'm gonna lose weight," (even tho I want to) or "I'm gonna go back to school," since that's in my plan for next year anyway. This year I've decided that the only thing I will commit to is trying to increase my happiness in the upcoming year.

Now, please understand, that's no resolution. This is not something that I'm saying just because it's a new year. This is something I've been thinking about for some months now. To be more exact, I've been thinking about this since my last birthday on August 21, 2008. I've come to the realization, as I watch my sister prepare for motherhood and hear about friends taking the plunge into married life, that I am in the prime of my life and I sure as hell better start enjoying it. Anybody who knows me can tell you that I am a fun-loving, silly, caring, open-minded, straight up goofy individual. I am hugely curious by nature and there's so much that I would love to do...but haven't yet for one reason or another. I'm tired of that. I guess I just want to live more freely now without as much worry about what people (mainly my mother and and other judgmental family members) will think. I wanna challenge myself this year in whatever way I see fit.

I'm looking at this year as a year of increase. I just wanna be happy in the life I have right now. I think I'm right where I need to be right now. I know I still have to go through and understand some things before I get to where I wanna be but, he, who doesn't. I'm content. You could even say I'm kinda happy. My aim is to be happier.

What about you?

Until next time...XOXOX!!!!